Before I had children I could not function unless I had a good 9-10 hours of sleep. No joke. I couldn't hold my eyes open past 10 o'clock and would easily sleep until 7 the next morning. I remember thinking, "how in the world am I going to survive those first few months of motherhood when my baby wakes up all through the night to eat?" Ha! How naive I was to think that the sleep deprivation only lasted a few months! I haven't slept through the night in over a year. But you know what? I am just fine. Tired, yes, but I'm still able to do my job as a mother. Pretty cool how God really does give women the strength we need to take of our children despite our fatigue. Lord knows most men couldn't do what we do for more than a few days! (just kidding, hub).
Speaking of fatigue, right now it's 5 am and I'm laying in Mary lawrence's trundle bed. She's thrown up about 12 times throughout the night so I figured it'd be easier if I just stayed in here with a bowl at my side so maybe, just maybe I won't have to keep changing her sheets. I am so tired but my mind cannot clear enough so I can sleep in between these 25 minute throw-up intervals. Probably because I am making myself sick thinking about what will happen if Maggie gets this stomach virus. It would be really bad and I'm so mad at myself for not washing Maggie's hands yesterday after ML got home from Little Rock and touched her. I'm usually so good about that. Now all I can think about is how I'm going to keep this three year old quarantined in her room tomorrow. And what I am going to do if our poor baby starts vomiting when her little stomach is already hurting so much.
Praying for a quick recovery for my little angel....and for strength to make it through what's looking to be like a long day.
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