After a rough week last week and feeling hopeless again, Maggie turned a corner on Friday and started eating nearly all of her feedings so we didn't have to do the nose (ng) tube. We took her to see her pediatrician (the first time since we left the hospital) and he was not as focused on Maggie's weight - unlike the dietitians and therapists - but more focused on her brain development and that seems to be fine right now.
He also sat me down and said he was much more concerned about me right now than he was with Maggie and that's why he wants to put in a g-tube if her feeding doesn't get more consistent soon. I told him I don't want my stress level to be the reason she gets a g-tube. That just doesn't seem right. But he is genuinely worried about our family, how this stress affects Mary Lawrence, and, most of all, my mental health. I guess it's a good thing that we have such a wonderful doctor that cares about what's best for our family, but I am not going to let my stress level be the determining factor in whether or not she gets a g-tube. At least not right now.
Thank you for your continued prayers for Maggie and our family right now. I am so thankful for a better few days. It really helps to keep me going!