I don't mean to be negative but I am just about at the end of my rope. The bleeding hasn't stopped and everytime I do, this deep fear washes over me because I just don't know what is about to happen. I am exhausted cause I have to get up all through the night and only get about 4 hours a sleep a night. And Maggie's kicking has gotten so strong and with low fluid there is not that usual barrier and so it it just painful at times. I just feel disgusting and lethargic and not like myself. I think I have hit a low point!
I don't want this to be over, I just want things to stabilize for a while. I know I sound like a whiner and I am sorry. I am not forgetting that God has been so good to us and I am still so thankful for our good news on Monday. This week has just been a hard one, both physically and emotionally. Thankfully I have the most patient husband in the world who puts up with all my weaknesses!
I am praying that things are still the same at our sonogram tomorrow. Also praying for strength and patience and calmness!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...