Laughter is supposed to be the best medicine, but apparently not for me. Last night Justin and I had some time alone together for the first time in a long time. We were watching SNL Weekend Update and he was laughing so hard it was making me laugh so hard.
But every time I laugh I get so stressed out because I feel like any kind of sudden movement or jerking (coughing, sneezing, laughing) might make me leak fluid (sorry, TMI). I was trying so hard to bury my face in a pillow as to hold in my laughter, but anyone who has ever tried to suppress laughter knows: it doesn't work. After both of us were very unsuccessful at holding it all in, I made him turn off the t.v. It is just too stressful! Poor Justin, some fun I am. One day, I keep telling him, we will get to laugh again like we used to.
Anyways, one thing we can be happy about is that I am 22 and a half weeks and will be admitted to the hospital next Thursday. I know that's not something most people look forward to, but for us it's a goal we have almost reached. A point in which the doctors will try to save our baby if she is born (although we don't want that to happen just yet:).
We went to my doctor today and everything was about the same. The doctor saw fluid in the bladder which is another good sign - that she is swallowing and digesting fluid. She is moving a lot which is also good. I haven't gotten an infection yet so that is an answer to prayer.
I have modified the prayer requests to the right. In addition to her lungs, we also need to pray that her muscles grow and develop properly. With a lack of fluid, sometimes these PPROM babies can't move freely like they can when they are surrounded by water and that can have negative effects. Everything on Maggie is measuring normal, which is good, although her legs are measuring a week behind everything else. Not that big of a deal, but I am still going to pray about it. Please pray also that she is just completely healthy and free of any chromosomal abnormalities. And that she will stay in me as long as possible!
Overall I am feeling good this week. So thankful that God has allowed me to progress this far. I am not laughing, but I am definitely smiling.