"Neither the pillar of cloud by day, nor the pillar of fire by night left its place in front of the people." Exodus 13:22
We had a good appointment today. The fluid levels were about the same (which is better than them going down!) but the encouraging news was that he saw fluid in the baby's stomach. This is important because it means the baby is swallowing fluid. And if she is swallowing fluid, it means that it's probably in her lungs! So that was great news for us.
I am so grateful that each time we go to the doctor it seems God gives us a little nugget of hope to continue on this very scary path. Some might chock it up to good luck or coincidence, but that would not be acknowledging and praising His obvious works. Looking back through the weeks, I can see God answering our prayers in His own perfect way, reminding us that He is listening and that He is in control.
Someone gave me a book recently recounting the Israelites exodus from Egypt. I had forgotten that when God led them out of Egypt to the Red Sea, He took the form of a cloud that stayed ahead of His frightened people and led them step by step to where He wanted them to go.
In life, sometimes we all wish God would be so visible like that cloud. But even though we can't see a cloud or see Jesus walking in front of us, the Bible tells us He is always here with us. (Rom 8:9) The Sunday that this all started five weeks ago our minister spoke about God's omnipresence. He said that God is just as present in the good times as he is in the tragic ones, just like He is just as present at church on Sundays as He is in my room as I type this posting. I have thought a lot about that truth since then because I find that after this past month I truly believe it! This may sound kooky but I truly feel God's presence in me and His peace blanketing my soul. And although God may not be a visible cloud walking in front of me on this scary road, like a lamp onto my feet He is leading my every step. And not only that, but He has been so good to me by giving me a little hope each step of the way.